thy word is a lamp upon my feet

2009-09-30T13:47:00.002+08:00

life has beeen BUSY.

meet up meet up meet up.

to my 3F03 darlings,

sorry i cant meet up with you before i leave.

i know its sudden and stuff.

well count down, 5 more days await me.

there are tons of things i cant wait to teach the kiddos there. :D:D

and all the countless activity i can imagine them doing with me.

HAHA.

plus in another language.

GOD i need the strength!

i'm embracing the future with much anticipation and excitement.

indeed GOD is good and gracious in showing me the path to walk and take till the end of the year.

something to look forward to:

my home coming! :D and youth camp camp camp!

mummy and daddy has agreed that di and i can go to camp together!

after which i will settle down doing ( insert GOD's plan here) :D:D

LORD thank you for teaching me how to trust and wait.

i'm awaiting the next instruction of my life.

this is so exciting it feels like i'm playing treasure hunt! :X

please do pray for me as i make this trip to this foreign land.

let's keep in touch via email.

the internet there's much much slower then sg, but at least theres internet la.

and all you out there, thanks for all the encouragement and support you've given me all this while. :D

vroom vrooom,

my only desire is to do my father's will.

XOXO

missing much! :D

2009-09-14T21:21:00.002+08:00

i'm back back back from cambodia.

to be honest,

i do have mixed feelings about being back in sg.

my thoughts constantly wondering over to cambodia.

it's so tiring to keep thinking and missing the things there.

it's like a rip in the heart to be honest.

so i went over to bff's place to watch BOYS over FLOWERS to try to get thigns off my mind.

and now, i'm back home.

the 9 days spent in cambodia

has really taught me much stuff.

and i really do thank and give praise to the LORD,

for constantly uplifting us up, day after day.

moment by moment .

i could really feel the love of christ being transmitted amongst all of us.

imagine us if we werent one in the bond of the love of christ.

i think our trip wont have been that successful.

so i praise the lord and thank him.

for he's the one who unites us.

one body, one sprit, one love.

2009-08-30T22:48:00.002+08:00

exams are over! :D:D

wheeee. so my exam freee life is here! :D:D

it's really been a bitter sweet journey.

i'll really miss you guys.

all the silly and things we did.

all the time we shared in the last sem,

i'll truly miss you guys. :D

my weekends were great,

i went out with wen xin dear yesterday!

finally!

we chatt like two aunties like that. ahahhas

i really really missed this babe la!

really thank GOD for allowing us to be able to catch up. :D:D

thanks girl for you birthday treat! :D <3

i cant wait for this thurs, this time feli will be joining us! :D:D

yay cam whore time yes! :D

and since exams are over, i'll be going off in like 5 days time.

yay! i'm so so so excited.

at the same time, i'll miss so many things here.

so please please update me when i'm back. ;D

thankyou GOD, for granting me my birthday wish,

though i wasnt wished happy birthday, the smile and chat was good enough.

:D i hope things keep up this way. :D:D thanks for being there.

human love just complicates things when they come at the wrong time.

*prefect love casts out all fear

blessed week peeps! :D

GOD thank you for loving and saving me, and giving me this promise :D

2009-08-16T22:01:00.002+08:00

hey all thanks for all the pleasant suprises, birthday wishes, time spent, to make my 20th such a memorable and great day.

i really enjoyed myself and i really feel so very blessed with each one of ur wishes; be it text messages, fb messages , manual wishes.

because each wish has taken up some time and

i'm so very greatful you shared it with me.

each wish has just made my day even better and ALL your love has filled my heart.

i'm deeply touched <3

this post is dedicated to you! :D

time line: 14th aug to 16th aug.

my blessed BIRTHDAY !!!

it all began on friday: with a meet up with my old buddy, arul. ahhaas. met up at Fish & co. right after he booked out and changed. :D

chit-chatted and caught up with old times. :D

after that, bff and her bf, came over to my place. thanks guys!

especially daniel who doesnt know me so well, but took time off to accompany my dearest sweetest bff, aishah to my place to COUNT DOWN for me. :D

we played uno-stacko while waiting for 12 to come.

daniel and aishah. :D

of which of the almost 5 rounds of uno stacko, i lost twice, so i owe bff 20 piano pieces :( wish me all the best cause i will die playing X)

my hands will jus die playing continuous 20 pieces of length approx 4 pages each.

our finally awaited 12 mid- night! also know as my 20th birthday.

bff suprised me with this wonderful tasting cake.

flavour: banana chocolate. see the many fruits on it, apparently it's baked my bff's sister.

big thankyou! :D:D

fyi, it's my first time eating macaroons. :D:D

next, she took out my pressies; so touching ok!

she got me a musical box playing one of my fav jazz songs ; what a wonderful world.

and she also got me:

A BIG and HUGE MR toufu! which i can huggg and study now.

espically since i'm mugging like a szb. ahhaas.

wishes received: tirzah,shu sian,anil, ivy, grace (darling), grace mew (honey) , wen xin, jasmine (np) ,

saturday, 15th aug, 7 am till end of day.

wishes received: yao zong, aiysah, alfred (uncle), peh see, fong eng, hui nee,jeremy jee, cherie ,subah, sandi, yuwen, jiajun,amaeru (my pri sch fren) , laveen, yingli, darren (fypee) ,sarah, huan ling, tersoon, gary, nick ong (kor), yong jian , shi ning, daphne , keng koon, michelle , cedric, cheryl, lisa, liling, charlene, paterina, yaozong, ruth, shira, ezza, auntie dora, chern, mummy con, kenneth, kai xin, wen yi (neh), ben di, brandon di, maggie, yin san, rachael, mel fong, val my dearest cousin, kerrian, limin, esther , mel (jie) , liling, natalie, seow fei, wei sheng.

i hope i didnt forget anyone. :D

i went to church for youth and soon after, went to celebrate birthday at gim tin with my family. :D

while waiting, the girls were learning how to wish

mummy and daddy got me my much craved for; lychee martineeee cake!

yays! :D:D didnt get to take a pic of the amazing cake, i think it's on my dad's SLR.

16th aug; today

after church today, went out with liling as planned. little did i expect, she had something up her sleves! thanks for planning yea, MOR too. and thanks for everyone who came to suprise me!

you guys seriously a bunch of good good actors la!

hahaas. still can come to me and tell me sorry this year don have time to prepare cause very busy studying. and i was totally convinced and understand why you guys didnt do much. lol.

anyways i understand , cause uni jus started, and A levels , prelims all coming, poly exams too!

anyways,

liling managed to stall and trick me into walking almost the WHOLE of marina square where the rest settled at suntec to prepare at fish & co.

when i arrived at Fish & co,

this is what i saw:

and this:

right in front of me when i entered Fish and Co.

so so so shocked ok! the video is on fb, if you happen to see it, please DO NOT LAUGH at me! XD

thie pressies i received with much much thanks:

angel earings

and this photo hanging on my door knob now! (comfrim see everyday honey! :D:D )
thanks so much! i love both of them

from cheryl dear:

this box will come in super super handy for me. thanks so much dear! i would write many many prayer request and remember that GOD is always in control and he's working in me!

BIG HUGS!

along with it came this super duper cute card! love it! esp. the doodle u did for me! :D:D

so cute right! ahhahas.

from : melfy ( the red bottle) and seow fei and kit soon the mango shower! :D

ahaha you all somehow know i body shop fan right! ahhaas.

anyways these bottles will comfirm i smell great in cambodia! thanks! :D:D

yuppies! i jus wanna say thank you so so so much for everything. and more importantly, Thank you GOD! for giving me friends like you guys. all these gestures of love has jus encouraged me to press on even more.

it reminds me of the saying that goes, when u're feeling weary and weak, just press on , for you'll never know what is coming.

thankyou GOD for all these blessings on this very special day of my life.

i'll know i have nothing to fear.

and more importantly, i shall cast my burdens on the LORD! :D

once again, thanks for ALL THE LOVE! <3

i'll be upholding each and everyone of you in my prayers! <3

x0x0 enns. :D

2009-08-12T23:54:00.002+08:00

when will i finally be able to laugh with my whole heart again?

when will i finally be able to be whole again.

i can laugh and i smile and can be touched.

but theres always a part, theres always a hole theres always a distant thought at the back of my brain.

i can honestly say i was really really touched today,

when aisyah and the gang came up with the cake to suprise me today.

thanks so much peeps.

2009-08-12T22:36:00.003+08:00

i have no idea if it's the stress causing the hormones to act up

or i'm jus going to snap soon.

i have no idea why i'm so emotional and tempremental.

i've no idea why i'm crying so uncontrollably now.

i've no idea why i'm feeeling so helpless, so useless, so ridiculous and so loney now.

i have no idea why my head is aching so much.

i have no idea why my parents demand so much from me now.

i have no idea why i always feel so responsible for all the things around me

i have no idea why i feel so bad and so sad seeing you all hurt.

you probably have no idea how painful it is for me to try to explain to you.

how painful it is for me to see you dissapointed in me.

how hard i'm trying to live to your expectations.

sometimes i just wish i can walk away.

sometimes i wish i can just ignore.

but that's not me.

i deal with it. i solve.

i cannot just sit and watch everything fall apart.

i cannot just let this rot.

i either operate on it or heal it.

this is me.

please try to understand my efforts.

i'm not prefect, but i'm trying to,

i cant change the past, but the future i can.

DEAR HEAVENLY FATHER, would you jus take away all this pain right now?

i need you lord,

please help me to understand.

2009-08-09T21:11:00.005+08:00

happy national day everyone!

went out with NEH and DARLING after church today.

chilled at bakerzin and TCC! :D:D

our final dish of the day:

neh's second serving of desert:

neh:

darling's
my most amazing experience of desert. :D:D

my desert :D

neh's first helping of desert.

totally love the concept yo! :D

our tcc lunch:

today was an amazing day!

was nice meeting up today! :D:D

have a wacky and fun national day :D:D

2009-08-09T00:07:00.002+08:00

today was sucha great and wonderful day!

i'm feeling so blessed and everything about today seemed so lovely.! ahahas

i could really feel the love in the air, in the church, everyone was rejoycing in the wedding. :D

congrats mun yee and tse yong! :D:D

i guess i finally understand that everything will happen in GOD's timing, in he's plan. :D

i found the lyrics to this song really really meaningful!

read and enjoy! :D

Love Will Be Our Home

If home is really were the heart is

 And home must be a place we all can share

 For even with our diffrences, our hearts are much the same

For where love is we come together there

Wherever there is laughter ringing

Someone smiling, someone dreaming

We can live together there

Love will be our home

Wherever there are children singing

 Where a tender heart is beating

We can live together there

 Cause love will be our home

With love our hearts can be a family

 And hope can bring this family face to face

And though we may be far apart

Our hearts can be as one

When love brings us together in one place

Wherever there is laughter ringing

Someone smiling, someone dreaming

We can live together there Love will be our home

Where there are words of kindness spoken

Where a vow is never broken

 We can live together there

Cause love will be our home

Love will, love will be our home

 Love will, love will be our home

Love will, love will be our home

Wherever there is laughter ringing

 Someone smiling, someone dreaming

 We can live together there

Love will be our home

Wherever there are children singing

Where a tender heart is beating

We can live together there

Cause love will be our home

Love will, love will be our home

Love will, love will be our home

Love will, love will be our home

 Wherever there is laughter ringing

Someone smiling, someone dreaming

We can live together there

Cause love will be our home

 Love will be our home

my birthday wish is to jus have a heart to heart talk. and to see a smile.

just like today. :D

somehow, i just feeel so so so happy today. :D

i'll be meeting neh and darling in a few hours time! :D:D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE! :D:D

2009-08-05T00:19:00.002+08:00

nothing much to think about.

nothing much to be confused about.

the used to, will never be the same again.

why because i've cast all my worries to GOD.

what's the point of worrying about what we dont know would happen?

hahaas.

all i know is that we're similar.

we're way too similar.

the things of our interest.

oh welll. :D

take care you.

i'm glad grace dear is ok

please take care of yourself and dont exert yourself!

2009-08-01T11:16:00.002+08:00

another week's over.

this week has yet again been eventful.

threes have celebrated our 3rd birthday celebration! :D

coming week will be another one. :D

seems like we're full of july and august babes!

yay we rule. :D

went to watch UP! with rachel, melfy, sonia.

thanks to rachel who invited us! :D

we got premeire tickets.

this show is a must watch ok! :D|

so NICE! :D:D:D

attended FOP last night with nicky, cheryl and lisa baby! :D:D

all i could say is that,

i recommited myself to JESUS last night.

oh lord please guide us all.

and please help us to keep our fire and passion burning always for you.

2009-07-27T19:34:00.003+08:00

would you believe me that all the love you can find is in JESUS?

would you begin to believe me if i started to share?

the message yesterday really reminded me of how off tracked i was.

let's give a hand to those on our left.

let's be a good right hand "man"

lets glorify and shine.

because of the LOVE of christ, I FEEL WHOLE AGAIN! :D

for my life has grace,sacrifice and love written ALL over it.

and because of he's grace for me,

i can live.

2009-07-25T20:36:00.003+08:00

life's been great so far, met my couple of suprises this week,

and i've beeen so busy this week.i'm glad i got to drop by bff's place to spend 2 hrs.

school wise,

other then going on our class trip, clelbrating 3 birhtdays and concluding our series of pract,

the rest has been the same.

oh yes on mon, yz, cat and i went to catch harry potter. :D:D

get well soon cat! i know your face is itchy, but DONT SCRATCH!

tata.

jus to share a song that's stucked in my mind right now..

Lord, I wish I could praise You with adequate words
But You leave me speechless
And I so long to sing You the song You deserve
But it would be endless
I long to move Your heart
To bring You something new
To tell how great You are
Till my praise to You

chorus:
Its like an ocean breeze blowing on your face
Like a summer sun with its warm embrace
Like a gentle rain plays a symphony
Thats what I want my praise to be
Like a fragrant rose in the early spring
Like an eagle soars when it spreads its wings
Whatever, Lord, You may need from me
Thats what I want my praise to be
To You

Everything I could give, You already possess
Lord, Im so unworthy
Im just one of the millions to stand and confess
And yet still You hear me
Your heart is open wide
You long for what I bring
I pray somehow Youll find this simple offering

JULY IS COMING to an END!

much things to do in august. hee. :D

2009-07-19T23:34:00.002+08:00

been feeling really really tired these few days,

but THANKS to GOD,

who has been so good and gracious and faithfully sustaining me.

i've been so busy with work that i cant stay back for our usual dinners on sat. :(

but thanks to all the brothers and sisters

for keeping me in your prayers yea!

the end is nearing very very sooon.

events that have been keeping me siant. HAHA:X

cheryl's birthday.

meet up with my bfff.

copa cep

copa rfg.

cambodia meetings.

in prayer:

please do pray for the upcoming medical trip yea.

we'll be leaving on the 5th of sept.

much planning currently going on.

and i might try to pick up a few common phrases before going. :X

drugs and machines that have to be finalised too.

pray for safety and for good turn up from the villages.

and for the chance to share the good news.

(we'll be having some gospel meetings)

misses:

-CHANG LILING. (who's in a open relationship with me on fb)

liling please bring me a ANG MO man to singapore toooo.

ahhaas i want talll tall and the rest you should know.

-fooong yuwen who left for auz already for her 2nd sem

miss you much love! :D

-wen xin, who i havent met since i dunno when. arghhh we gotta meet up.

i have so many things to share with you. and i misssyou love.

-kym dear, who's also so busy with work now. hahahas. :D you're missed and loved! :D

-my dearest bfff, aishah. :D

let's keep and uphold each other, encouraging each other on in the coming of weeks

tata.

XOXO

2009-07-11T21:45:00.002+08:00

i've this sudden urge to blog.

i've just been gripped by this feeling.

and i felt this strong drive to have it dispelled out of me.

so here i am to share.

i've been reading this book,

and it certainly has driven me to contemplate on many issues.

issues that i've so often fought back and tried not to think about.

to grip me of my innerst being,

and to question myself honestly,

something, of which i'm afraid, i havent been doing ever so dillegently.

so here i am.

as i was quite determined to continue reading my book,

this surge to do my quiet time came about.

it was as though GOD was calling out to me,

calling me, telling me to set my piorities straight.

telling me, reprimanding me that i should have read he's word earlier.

for i know that from this morning, i'd been pushing to read he's work till the last of the things i do.

how could ever such thought come upon me?

shouldnt this be the first thing on my agenda?

it creeped into me.

and all of a sudden, as though i suddenly hit reliazation of my silent guilt within me,

i jolt up, closed my book and went straight to my bible, to read he's word.

and the feeling, was so indescrible,

it felt as though i was running into he's warm and loving arms.

and my heavenly father telling me, alast, my child.

this felt like new blood gushing through my veins.

felt so renewed.

oh LORD, i so ever thank you for giving me this feeling,

reminding me of your importance.

reminding me of my incapabilities, and how small and how in need of you.

helpless-ness is indeed a blessing.

loveless-ness, is to show us how flawed humans are

loniness, just shows us how much we actually crave for concern and care that no human can ever attain.

and death, is jus to show us how frail we actually are.

and all these simple things in life are what we ever so seek in life,

what we actually do need to feel so full of life, so ever contented.

but are however, never made to be found in man.

but all answered in GOD's love for us.

so who can now say that our heart does not have a hole that only GOD can fill?

this emptiness is a catalyst.

the catalyst for us to search for the LOVE GOD offers to us.

and when it is found, the hole in our love is filled,

and this binding is as strong as lock and key.

now think about that. :D

2009-07-08T12:39:00.002+08:00

ages since i blogged.

been too busy to even update. "X

major landmarks in my life so far,

i finally got a TO DIE FOR camera. :D:D

whoots whoots whoots.

i started eating small amounts of meat.

in a good proportion.

the LORD's been gracious and kind to me.

:D:D

145 anni over,

got to meet up with church peeps.

meet ups.

met up with mark and aldred for PRAWNING.

it was my first ever time prawning. but it was great.

hehe. i caught a few ok. :D

met yuwen honey who came back from auz.

sadly, grace was ill so she couldnt come.

met up with dearest kym. :D we subway-ed. :D:D

bumped into ec. whooo whooo.

yuwen says i was fa hua chi-ing.

but no such thing ok. ahhaas. :D:D

i can smile all the way tee hee.

so my life has been blessed so far.

i thank the LORD that though the road is tough,

he's always at the corner to encourage and to catch me when i fall

indeed our LORD is gracious. :D

praise the LORD.

2009-06-28T16:04:00.002+08:00

sometimes i wonder if things are still the same after four years.

the way we left them.

the way we walked away.

i'm certain we all have changed.

the way we see things.

the way we look, the way we walk the way we dress.

the way we talk.

i know i've hurt u over and over.

i'm sure u've moved on.

i was wrong to think that there was nothing, somehow there used to , and there is still.

it seems as though you've been silently been my side.

and i know it must have hurt you seeing me hurt so badly,

i shut off the world,i shut you off.

i kept to myself, so did you.

thanks for praying for me.

likewise, i'll do so for you.

stay strong :D

i'm touched much,

i know i've been prayed for and missed.

2 weeks wasnt easy.

it was like fasting.

thankyou GOD for bringing me to another level.

2009-06-27T12:54:00.002+08:00

weekends are here.

i promise,

i would go yp later if i finish my quizes.

i realized that during the week that i've been immoblised,

i missed the due date.

it really pays to fall ill.

anyways, been trying to continue to eat healthy. :D:D

70% vege and fruits i've done it. :D:D

please forgive me from my moment of folly.

eating those potato chips, my fav bueno, pork floss sticks and maybe induldging on an oily thing. :X

yea i know i'm supposed to be vegan, 2 fishes wont kill right ;

ive been cooking meals everyday.

so spare me please.

i really thank the lord for seeing my thru these difficult times.

during the one week, i managed to see things from a whole new pespective.

and i thank him,

whoo 3 more months, hello cambodia! :D:D

on an ending note,

my holidays have jus few passs.

and my tan is fading.

some sun next week please

and wind tooo.

chill out world.

2009-06-21T13:15:00.003+08:00

today's the 6th day of detox!

been able to cope on my own now! :D

many many thanks to the encouraging text messages loves!

my couzies and bff and meow friend most importantly, my family.

and to kym and the peeps.

sorry about cancelling the outings with wen xin and feli. plus the 3FO3 peeps.

been really crawling and weak.

well, thank and PRAISE THE LORD for seeing me through it.

as the saying goes,

whatever doesnt kill you, makes u stronger.

and AMEN to that!

okays so the next week, say hello to

studies, projects, meet ups and SHOPPING! ahahas.

:D:D:D

i have one more day tomorrow.

yay and i can already feel my strength coming back.

some pics of us couzies on monday.

MONSTERS vs ALIEN

presenting....

the cousins.

hahas. i combined our pics into this. :D:D

tata. fyi, the show was great.

ahha. kinda late but i finally had the strength to edit them.

:D:D

2009-06-14T18:43:00.003+08:00

exam's over yay! :D

i'm so so so relieved!

12th

went out with ivy dearest after our paper.

we shopped like whooo hoooo! :D:D:D:D

YESYEYSYES we did! ahha

13th

happy birthday neh neh! :D:D

went to church in the morning,

and then went out with darling in the afternoon.

we doubled bike.

she's pro okays.

we did a styleo milo turn.

whoo hooo.

and i saw aishah dear on our way.! ahhahas.

we went

aborad the pirate ship! :D:D

darling was brave mans!

and we sure did the feel of butterflies in our stomach.

us on the ship before the TAKE OFF! XD

we had subway way way after that. :D

we met alot of random peeps on our way back too.

haha

14th

church church and early father day's dinner. :D

i'll be starting detox tomorrow.

pray for me! :D

2009-06-11T17:51:00.004+08:00

sometimes, i think i'm better not thinking about it.

cuase i can occupy up my mind with other stuff.

than to wonder and wonder and wonder.

when i already know this is jus not the right time.

not for me,

neither is it for you.

i cant explain it, but the slightest of sendimental songs,

it floats back into my thoughts.

the only and best thing to do, is

dear lord,

help me to endure and wait.

show me if this is your will.

because if it's not, another door will open.

cause till right now, another one hasnt opened.

perhaps i need to wait for awhile more till another one opens?

or perhaps this one will jus open?

When u smile My life becomes a ray of light  Sing me a lullaby To sleep at midnight  I’ll be hypnotized  when looked into your eyes Turn off the room light

Let's Spend the night take me to far away Away to your secret place Take my tears my fears Take all my pain for which I'll repay Someday with a kiss and say  :D

In Love Again
Janice.

2009-06-06T11:53:00.002+08:00

heyyyos.

:D goood morning world.

i'm as chirpy as the sunshine today.

and i have no idea why.

:D:D

2 more days to examies.

a week more and hello holidays.

wooo hoooo.

theres so many things i'm going to do.

:D:D:D

cant wait cant wait can wait.

to those who are already having holidays, happy holidays

and to those like me, examinations gallore all the best! :D

i'm giving u my mega watt smile goodbye. :D

shine like the sun in the day,

and like the twinkling star at night.

2009-05-19T21:33:00.000+08:00

i feel like a champion. :D
cause i know when u're going to text me.
yay.

2009-05-19T21:03:00.002+08:00

last week was a super super packed week!
but it was one of the most memoriable weeks i had.
:D

we celebrated my dearest lisard's birthday / abundantly outing. :D
at settlers cafe.
glad all the lovelies enjoyed it :D

and we also had our gyss gathering!
whooo hooo.
it was so much fun!
thanks angie. :D

sat and sun were also super packed, so i didnt have the time to update.

anyways, i've adapted a new lifestyle, which started on sun. :D
yea, thanks K,
i really wanna stay healthy and serve the lord to my fullest potential.
i wanna make good use of the body i have.
heh. the road is not easy, and everything is not excatly good tasting, but it's goood for my body.
i feel like edward and he's family in twilight
" it's jus like eating toufu vs meat, it's filling but not the best tasting " :D

hahaas. yea, i'm organic (vege + organic food) say bye bye to red meat and processed food.
bye maggie mee(s).

hello:

yum,yum. :D

2009-05-11T18:06:00.002+08:00

For a long time it had seemed to me that life was about to begin—Real Life. But there was always some abstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, time to be served, a debt to be paid. Then life would begin. At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were in my life.
-Alfred D'Souza

every moment, every time spent is special, part and parcel of life. no matter how confused, how tiring how sad. thankyou. :)
i really wanna thank all the peeps around.
especially bff. and chang chin chang, random peeps, lizard loh and nicky.
shuxian and all you wonderful peeps from the clique. :D

all you peeps : you're treasured, jus like how i know i'm love.
:)

2009-05-08T22:59:00.004+08:00

hello!

enns is here to update her weekly blog :D

at least this what it's turning into i think.

sunday:

didnt meet bff in the end cause i wanted to spend time with grandpos. :D

met yeo for lunch after church.

monday:

waited super long for the bus, but school was fine.

tuesday:

i saw MR gross on the bus.

omg and it was SUPER DISGUSTING!

he was scraping he's dead skin onto the busseat next to him!

everyone on the bus was like moving away from him.

i text-ed bfff all the way to prevent me from freaking out and changing bus.

met mom after school for lunch.

which was SUPERB!

my tim sum cravings, met. :D:D

wed:

met nicky, chang and LISA the lizard.

for dinner. :D:D:D

i still love the food at pasta cafe. :D

thanks LOVES i enjoyed myself :D:D

thurs:

I WATCHED X man (wolverine)

with my bro.

heee. i love that show! :D

friday :

i slept on my way to school like a baby.

ahhahas. THANK GOD for spacious seats. XD

went out with IVY love after schoool.

thanks for waiting for me FG. :D

and and we both got the experience of seating on the music bus!

omgosh it was a really fun ride to jp!

enjoyed our shopping and talks. :D

school was really fun today and ter sooon joined us for lunch @ blk 50. :X

weekends:

church , and the MOST important thing, to bring the last and the first day of the week to my LORD,SAVIOUR and KING> :D

this whole week,

i thank the LORD for seeing me thru ,

all the ups and downs.

in those teary moments, he comforted me.

in those moments i needed support, he sent me.

and the moments i needed a hug, he gave my mom to me.

for those moments i needed a friend, he gave me.

your love is so upliftng.

to experience frm you.

thank you LORD.

:D
let the light shine within.

2009-05-02T12:58:00.002+08:00

it's been an awful while since i updated.

things have been fine, thank GOD. :D
i've totally enjoyed my week.
here goes:

sunday:
meet bff after church.
went to her place as it was raining awfully heavy.
had durian after dinner. ( complimants from bff's mom)

monday:
met up with LISA baby for dinner. :D:D
yes yes abubaka here enjoyed our meet up.

thurs:
k-ed with darren yong and fong yingli.
:):) we were superzihigh PLEASE,
after which i brought yingli to study. hahaas :X.
and dinnered with nicky and baba @ arab. :D:D

friday:
met up with WENXIN!! yay.
i was happy to the ultimate degreee.
meeting and catching up was uber fun and awesome.
NYDC made us so so so full PLEASE;
sorry the meet up was so short. (we'll meet up again another time for shopping madness yes?)
had to rush home to go out for dinner with mom's cep group.

dinner was great! :D
i had crab. hahahas. :D:D
so happy nat and noah waS THERE TOO.

today's sat and i'm going to church sooon. :D
tomorrows sun again, yea.

2009-04-19T21:22:00.002+08:00

i'm currently having mixed feelings about things.
i seriously dunnoe why.
ehh and yea i know i'm afraid to cry and rant it all out.
cause i feel that it's more of a disturbance.
and i'm glad that i got to talk to mel fong today.
it's been a long long time since a heart to heart talk yea.

i really thank the lord.

maybe all need to do is rant it all out to him.
i think i jus need to keep the faith and walk blindly.
peresevere on in CHRIST!
yes i will!

2009-04-16T18:58:00.003+08:00

tra lalala. :D:D:D

enns is feeling: LOVED <3

currently missing: you, she,bffff, him, them. :D

drinking: soya bean :D:D:D

reason: TEMPERATURE is so awesome yaw!

i must must go out tomorrow.

my brain is so fried today already. XD

i've been trying to understand the complexed stufff of . :D

my dearest DAWN is back from FOC.

i'm so glad she enjoyed it! :D:D

bffff must be so proud of me right now. :D:D

i know you are, if you what i'm feeeling right now. teee heee heee.

BEST OF ALL:
THE LOVE I FEEEL IS BECAUSE OF

the love that JESUS had for me.

has made me feeel so much joy and love that i just wanna SHOUT IT OUT!

you reached out to me.

2009-04-13T20:38:00.002+08:00

me love bfff loads! :D
bff's going to start school this week.
my dearest bff found the lovely doodles for me.
which i adore lots! :D
was supposed to go library today but i discovered that
the library was over crowded with uni + JC students muggging.
:(((
oh wells, stay indoors i guess.
one busy weeek before school reopens.
:D:D
i hope my dear mortal enjoys ther foc camp this week.
see you in school yea. <3

oh LORD how can i describe your faithfulness. :D

2009-04-10T13:57:00.003+08:00

here is the KING of the JEWS.

crucified not ony by the jews but my gentiles.

we sent him to trial, butin actual fact,

we were the one in trial.

hello everyone!

i hope this good friday has been a memorable and good one.

cause it has been for me. :D

my GOD is so amazing!

my questions has been answered.

i'll search and i'll continue to wait.

thankyou for delivering my answer through the message by brother ROY HILL.

thankyouFORdyingFORmySINS.

thankyouFORlovingMEwhenIwasUNLOVED.

andFORshowingYOURlove,

SHOWERINGyourLOVE.

my saviour, my bestfriend my everything.

in the center of my colourful life.

cause you colour my life. <3

no longer do i walk alone, but you wih me.

2009-04-07T22:23:00.006+08:00

through the fog, what do you see? would you have faith and just walk through? today's fog is a reminder and a challenge to us. :D

this week has already been eventful so far!:D:D

i think it's going to be a build up to easter.

yays!

mon:

went to bff's place in the morning to chill till afternoon.

then i did some shopping which is yay for me.

today:

met aldred and mark today for lunch.

they poooled after that.

which was (as i looked back), a long long long time since i sat there to watch.

after that headed to gym with yeo! :D:D

we had a nice time chatting and making out muscles work.

when i say muscles i meant: mouth, arms, legs.

i enjoyed the sharing time.

saw jj. which is so wierd cause all the many times i go to the gym, i dont see him.

till mark and aldred mentioned that he goes to the same gym! haha.

so after gym, yeo and i headed for dinner and then to church. :D

it's so amazing and wonderful.

that all the times i get touch-ed till i tear,

happened when i realised how much and how deep you actually care.

it only happens to me when i am reminded about you and your love for me and for the world.

thesinfulworldyouDIEDfor.

oh LORD, how match-less your love is.

thankyou.

GOD knows about everything.

about the pains and sufferings.

about the internal struggles you have.

about the love that i've found and the peace you have given me.

yes i know it takes time.

you're the only one who has patience.

thanks for being the potter of the clay.

the very hard clay.

and the gardener in the very stubborn vines.

in the times and moments i feel insecure.

and when i know i can only know the next step, not the whole picture,

you already knew. and you know where i would end up.

please give me the lens of faith.

2009-04-03T01:38:00.003+08:00

went out with bfff tonight.

:D:D:D

i enjoyed myself tons thankyou very much!

it's been a very very very long while since i felt this way.

thanks for making me feel so special.

thanks for the heart to heart talks.

thanks for loving and treasuring me.

i treasure you likewise.

friendship is a wonderful thing yea.

u've helped me seee what' wrong.

yea i've figured out myself.

i'm ready to be strong.

and face the truth.

sometimes, things that u're not supposed to see,

things that u're not supposd to read

will awaken you.

will cause a whole chemical reaction in you.
to make decisions, to figure yourself out.

for now, i cant be sure, but i'm 99% sure.

i dont wanna fall deeper, cause i'm afraid.

bff + me. thanks love. :)

2009-03-31T17:28:00.003+08:00

(hello love, when are we heading towards the sun again? )

i think i'm morphing.

because, i have developed a wierd sleep cycle. XD

i'll sleep at 11, and get up at 3/4 am.

and stone or read jus do anything until 6 am,

go to the toilet,

and then continue to sleep.

then i'll wake up at 9 or 10?

i only get 6 hours all in all.

some wierd sleep cycle ehh?

anyways, chang ching chang's going to join min and i tonight! :D

wooooots.

ahhhh i missed u so much on sun u know?

tee heee.

yayness! i'm so glad i can see u later on! :D:D:D

love love love.

QT was really an eye opening today.

when u do not succeed, it does not mean GOD's will is not done.

on the other hand, he's will might have been done.

likewise, if u succeed it does not mean that was what was planned for you to do.

the key:

listen closely and attentively, is that really the answer?

he does not need u, but u neeed him.

life without you, that's meaninglesss.

BECAUSE u are victory. success or not.

2009-03-30T13:44:00.002+08:00

the new sem is approaching.
went online to check my timetable.
EL's gonna work HARD.
yes i can yes i can. :)

mel's upgraded.
we can personalise our own webpage on mel.
hahahas.
fancy me getting all so excited about start school :X
my last and FINAL sem in np.

this sem's going to be so different cause i bet we'll be chilling in the labs
instead of my space with cards and board games.
ok jiayou jiayou.

suxain got into NUS! congrats congrats! :D:D

meet up on 4th
People in action. here wecome! :D

2009-03-28T11:48:00.003+08:00

currently: very itchy and ill.

i think i'm down with som virus. :(

the doc says m wbc level is up.

this would mean i would miss church this week.

:(:(:(

because,

week after week, it's the weekends that pass the fastest.

and it's the weekends which are the most eventful.

which also means,

i wont be able to seee silly smile /poooot this week . :(

and wx. :(:(:(

oh well, i'm sure there's a reason why i'm down wth rash from neck to toe.

thanks for your concern.

pray for me yes. :D

i'll be fine by GOD's grace.

i'll be missing all you lovely peeps in church.!

happy earth day peeps!

2009-03-26T20:38:00.002+08:00

a quick update cause my comp's batt is running low :X

went to bff's place yesterday!
it's beeen a week since we met!
heh that babe went window shopping with me. tee heet
we went to eat FISHY FISHY! :D
totally satisfied my craving.
thanks love! :D
my bestie's so lovely.
we headed to watch dvds :DD

today,
went gym and lunhed with yeo.
:D i enoyed myself babe! hee.
thanks for the fun. :D:D

cause
i'm so happy that's the reason why.
:D

2009-03-23T22:04:00.003+08:00

23rd.

went out with sister kym and had early dinner :)
i enjoyed myself totally. :D:D

i would miss my final sem in poly without her. :(

i hope u get into NUS/ NTU too dear! :D

i'm so glad to hear about how much u've been growing in the lord.

and how much work has been done through you!

PRAISE THE LORD!

yes we are hard pressed on every side.

but we will not give up.

let us offer ourslves as living sacrifices! :D

romans 12:1

kym dear! :D

24 th march.

HEAVY downpour.

kym babe called me with the GOOD and happy news!
yays! girl thanks for sharing such good news with me.
i'm touched! :D hee.

NTU NTU NTU!

oh and HS, if ure reading this,
lisa cant meet on wed night :(
i think this week's egypt meet up is jus going to be 2 of us.

min's meeting me for prayer tonight yays! :D

i feel like such a bumb that i really need to do some research soon! tee hee.

oh and guess what i found! :D:D

thanks love! :D

2009-03-22T23:32:00.004+08:00

everything's being taken care of from GOD. !

i'm so happy and contented about my upcoming events that.

i couldnt stop smiling smiling smiling.

tee hee.

kym honey FINALLY replied my text and we're heading out tomorrow.

apparently, hon says that i'm her BUGIS partner. ahhaas.

i say threading aye! :D

plus abigail is being random in fb, but it's super entertaining.

and my funnny toot distant uncle, which up till now i cant accept that we're related.

except from the fact that both of us are KINDA wacky,

is doing random stuff ONLINE.

bffff, i'm so sorry i wont be able to make it tmr. :X

but soon yea soon.

thanks for calling my up before one voice concert to wish me all the best.

loves!

i enjoyed myself watching melfy's hamonica concert today.

totally cool babe! :)

good job. please don get too stressed yes? :)

plus the bible study on plants and trees.

alrighty. i'm turing in tonight.

it's been a and exciting day. :D:D

the promises of GOD. never fail to encourage me and keep me strong.

my soul comforter.

2009-03-21T02:06:00.002+08:00

one voice was a success.
what ever blunders, what ever mistakes.
well what are they what were they?
mistakes and errors just show us how human we are.
and how much more we need of a perfect GOD.

ens really wants to thank
fong ying li and darren yong shan ming for coming to support!
thanks guys.
and also ;
cheri and con mummy for praying so hard for her.
yes i made it! with GOD's help :D:D
and the abundantly girls.
the journey has been fun!
and
for everyone else who has beeen praying for today's event.

MOST IMPORTANTLY,
GOD who oversaw and gave wisdom to man to lead and guide.

2009-03-21T01:45:00.002+08:00

he's ways are higher then my ways
and he's thoughts higher then mine.
there are times we jus do not understand why certain things happen.
there are times we feel that it's the correct and perfect time,
but he tells u NO!
we'll never understnd till later.
it's alright to feel sad, disapointed and useless.
but one must pulll themself up after that.
at times it hurts so much to make certain decisions, the right ones especially.
but u know you have to go against your human will.
to heed the higher calling.

i began to ask myself if i have been healing my wounds so much on my own.
that i began to neglect your feelings.
i was supposed to look out for you.
today was really an eye opener.
how far on task i have been.
i guess i have been too much on my own problems.
i really do care for you as a brother.
and i want you to grow,
not have dementia or alzheimer's.
i hope u've not sunk too deep.
let me help you and pull you out yea.
GOD is always here waiting for you too.
have faith and keep on trusting. :)

2009-03-20T15:27:00.003+08:00

at times i think i have high expectations on myself.
could be because i push myself too far now a days.
dear lord, i should be satisified.
but why arent i already satisified.
i guess now i know that grades arent that important to me.
lord, show me where you want me to go.
lead me to the path.
please lord.
my life in your hands.

i know i alread did really really well this sem. and i thank you lord.
thank you for walking with me through those difficult days.
i got my first 3.8 thank you lord.

2009-03-19T16:19:00.005+08:00

brought dawn dear around school today! :)

HELLO NIC CHIA FAT BOY!!!
you psk. :(:(:(
anyways,
my bro accompanied me.
school certainly brings back lots of memories.
all the times we spent together.
all the dreams together.
all the fun together.
all the camps together

sometimes, some things you jus have to wait and relect.
and now, i know i have been doing it wrong all that time.
and now, seeing what has happened.
i know i made the right decision.
it was painful but it was worth it.
i was hurt then,
but my wounds are healing day by day moment by moment.
my wounds are bandaged and the medication is here.
i hope u've found your bandages and medication too.

THE LORD IS MY EVERYTHING.
he provides for he's sheep.
all that i need is in you.
thank you for sending. :)

u're jus a tatoo.
i've removed it.
the scars are there.
reminding me of the mistakes,
i'll never want to make again.

en is EXTREEEEELY happy that
darren fyp partner and Fong Fong yingli
is coming for ONE VOICE TOMORROW!
teee-heeee. YAY YAY YAY!
xoxo i know i'm loved. :D

2009-03-19T00:44:00.002+08:00

my day in summary:
i jus came home from liling dear's home. :)
today was a fab day!
lisa darling and i went to auntie mitch's place to catch up.
thanks for everything. :D
lisa darling and i later headed to liling's place where the other girls were.
the abundantly girls tried singing lying down.
whooots so fun and out of breath heh. :)
was fun though.

my reflection in summary:
the sky was really really blue today.
i was so nice! there were a few clouds around at that time.
it reminded me of how the lord would protect he's people in the wilderness.
and i really thank GOD.
because i can say my lord is real! and he's a caring GOD!
even in he harsh-est conditions,
my LORD he's there to protect.
i was thinking to myself if we didnt have the resources for hdb houses today,
the lord would provide something else.
because he cares.! the shelter and food he provides.
oh how awesome!

the other thing i learnt and was reminded today was to,
hear your will lord.
to be sure of the path u want me to take.
help me to hear your heart beat lord.
let me be a-tuned to you.

watch this video by avalon,everything to me.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=deCnussRg2g

u're everything to me, more then a story.

worship

2009-03-17T22:02:00.002+08:00

didnt go sentosa cause i decided that i would be too tired for prayer meeting.
plus overly burnt for one voice.
which would be :(
and had low iron count .
zzzz.

min was nice today. :)
sorry for being late. and thanks for ordering dinner. :D:D
message for prayer meeting brought back perspective.
worship GOD.
everything that we do should actually revolve around worshipping him.
and honouring him.
by worshipping i mean make him KING and LORD of your life.
oh mould me lord!.

labyrinth

2009-03-16T14:52:00.003+08:00

i came accross something interesting today.
word: labyrinths
Greek λαβύρινθος labyrinthos) was an elaborate structure designed and built by the legendary artificer Daedalus for King Minos of Crete at Knossos.
function : hold the Minotaur, a creature that was half man and half bull and was eventually killed by the Athenian hero Theseus. Daedalus had made the Labyrinth so cunningly that he himself could barely escape it after he built it.Theseus was aided by Ariadne who provided him with a fateful thread, literally the "clew", or "clue", to wind his way back again.

meaning: often used interchangeably with maze, but modern scholars of the subject use a stricter definition.
For them, a maze is a tour puzzle in the form of a complex branching passage with choices of path and direction; while a single-path (unicursal) labyrinth has only a single Eulerian path to the center. A labyrinth has an unambiguous through-route to the center and back and is not designed to be difficult to navigate.

i stumbled accross this word this morning while reading the introduction to the book of Amos.
the way in and the way out of the labyrinth is easy,
the way you enter is the way you leave.
however what ever you bring in and bring out of the path is different.
the thought struct me that the lesson you learnt from walking a labyrinth (routine of life)
could be so much more. if u're "awake and listening. "
sometimes, the truth is just staring right infront of you.
you just need to ask GOD to reveal.

are you listening to he's still small voice, in the labyrith you walk each day?
the journey is part of the revelation.

2009-03-16T02:50:00.002+08:00

i've decided to start my blog anew.
so leave ur tags again.
i'm so sorry.
i kinda misplaced them in the process of doing my blog skin. :X

anyways night world.
ss price giving was totally fun today! :)
great job all you guys who performed!
prata supper was suppp :)
its been a long time since we all went out to eat though. :)
nights partners!
missing my dear king kong in AUZ!
i know u'll be reading my bloggg.
loads of love to AUZ yo!